We were being taught about cardiac arrest.. And how many people die from the simple denial of anything being wrong...I lost my uncle Larry to denial...it was the hardest new to reserve via Facebook message...
I woke up today and mom informed me it's my late grand dad's birthday... He would have been 77 today.. A longing for that retaliation-ship hit strong... Larry was my grand dads brother.. Great men are in heaven watching out over me...but there are times I wish I could just have a hug..
We have had sightings of bobcats around a 15 mile area at the farm.. It explained the behavior in my baby's.(animals)
Joeys tense reaction. Easily flighty. (Horse) Sadie howling... Hiding in the buildings.. Not chasing joe. (Boarder coli)
Last week we discovered our neighbors dog was in heat..which is a normal thing. My baby, who has gone through hell and back with me from when I was 12 to 20. Started going down there...not even I mile away. I could always tell where he was because his higher pitched playing bark echoed across the corn. He was always good at checking in with me every 3 hours. We would have some play love time then hed leave again.
It has been 5 days sense I have seen my beloved Sammy. No barking..neighbors haven't seen him....I knew Sunday something wasn't right...my heart broke today after each rare put into it by the mornings I'd get up and he didn't great me for breakfast...each evening I'd get home from class and we couldn't play. Or just hang out...my heart broke today when mom confirmed she went and asked the neighbors...
I miss my boy. Who helped get over daisy loosing the foal.. Then putting her down do to infection...I miss my boy who always made me laugh when I was to young to understand why my parents didn't get along...I miss my boy who concerted me through the deaths of so many great men...uncle Dewan. Uncle Larry. Clay. Grandpa... I miss my boy who not matter how far I ran into the field on a windy day to watch a storm, always come after me. I miss my boy who concerted me when I fell down. He was already down there to lick me.. Today my heart broke. I lost a childhood friend... No one can understand what one animal who cares can mean to me...they never said anything to hurt me..always eager and happy.
Lord thank you for making great amazing friends for us on this earth..I know that day will come that we all will be together again.. And right now Sammy is amount great men. Rip to my beloved men. It was an amazing season that you all influenced this girls life.
